One of the reasons this blog is so good for me, and likely why I was compelled to create it, is that I am very bad at favorites.  My paralyzing fear of commitment (which I like to think makes me mysterious and attractive but I really doubt anyone is watching me from afar saying “oh, whoiwanttofucktoday, you’re so indecisive and your inability to be an adult and take a chance gets me so hot… sigh…”) makes favorites very hard to deal with.  Someone asks me for my favorite band and I am just stunned, I can’t have an answer, I need qualifiers, lots of qualifiers.  Not because I am worried about being judged, I give fuck all about what someone thinks, I know my taste is unimpeachable, I just don’t want to be held to any sort of choice.  My favorite band, holy shit, I don’t know, the honest answer is whoever I want to listen to right now but that will be different in an hour.  Frankly, I don’t trust anyone who has a favorite band.  Or song.  These people are far too decisive for my taste, likely aliens or spies trying to fit in.  Haha, yes, I am onto your comrade I am sure you love Beatles Rock and Roll Music and American Blue Jeans.  Nice try, Ivan.   Ok, so… I have gotten off on a tangent here, the point is favorites are hard because they feel so limiting.  So this blog works because there’s always a tomorrow (thought sometimes at 3PM I am really wishing I could post again because whoever I posted at 8 AM is so 7 hours ago).  I also like lists, one of my favorite games years ago came from this, my girlfriend or I would just turn to the other and ask for her top 5.  This I could do easily because 5… that’s flexibility and she might ask again in an hour, commitment was gone (well, a rule was made I couldn’t list Kristen Bell because I always put her #1.  I will commit to her but that’s different we were meant to be together! I have proof! It’s in writing.  On my blog… cause I wrote it… look, there’s a good chance you guys will be called in as witnesses one day.  Be kind).  This brings me around to Leighton Meester who came in at #1 a lot.  A whole lot.  For a long time you could count on her being in my top 5 every time and at the very top the majority of the time.  But this is why I don’t like favorites, can you imagine if I had named her my favorite?  I have only posted her 3 times so far, she would be a total anchor around my neck.  I mean, Leighton, I love you baby, but I need to fly free, this bird you cannot chain!  I promise I’ll call, I’ve just been busy, work is so crazy right now and I have an early meeting!  I went off in an odd direction again but the thing is now she’s appeared twice in one week and why?  Because she’s fucking gorgeous!   And this is how it works with me, I can’t tell the future but for all I know Leighton Meester will be all over my thoughts for the next two months and if I were to play my top 5 game again she’d be back up there at #1 with a bullet.  Or not.  I can’t commit to that, I just can’t.  But I can for today, Lord can I.  She is just beautiful and that’s enough today.  I could mention I was always drawn to her because of her attitude on screen and her talent and her fashion forward appearance but… it’s in there rattling in the background but honestly today I just remembered she is so very, very pretty.  Which is why today I want to fuck Leighton Meester.