If you know me, or just have been following me for a while, you will know I have a complicated relationship with Taylor Swift.  Maybe relationship is the wrong word, I don’t want to start rumors, anyone else and that would be just a word but with her it could start rumors we have dated.  Which is kind of part of the complication.  Most people who know me would know I would say I am not particularly attracted to Taylor Swift, that I find her annoying.  This was very true once upon a time.  This is also the 10th time I have posted her so it kind of bellies the idea that I find her unattractive.  But the narrative that most of the internet latches onto of her life is what annoyed me about her for years.  I found her music especially grating, a thing I couldn’t put my finger on (I tried, too.  I have gone into detail).  Something about her private life was bothersome.  But… I don’t know anymore, maybe I turned a corner eventually because at some point I started to feel bad that everyone was piling onto her.  Like once the idea coalesced that she was a serial dater slut shaming “nice girl” I started to see cracks in all of that.  There are valid criticisms of her work and I suppose her but it strikes me as unfair to judge young women who grow up in the media spotlight.  We all made a lot of dipshit mistakes at 19.  I wore some stupid clothes trying to find some sort of identity.  There were people who slept around a lot.  There were people who didn’t sleep with anyone.  There were people who became communists for a month and Buddhists the next when I was in college. It is part of growing up.  So if Miley Cyrus seems to perpetually feel the need to show off that she gets bikini waxes that’s fine, she’s young.  Taylor Swift spent quite a few years manufacturing romances, dating people for very little time, acting like her minor relationships weer epic romances, and then scorching the Earth afterwards with bitter songs… well,it isn’t any worse than when my friend Nate started smoking a pipe so he could have a “thing”, it’s just more public.  More importantly, she hasn’t done that in a while.  Maybe she will again, maybe she is that sad bitter person who doesn’t get how poorly it reflects on someone to always trash their exes.  Or maybe she is different now.  I don’t know but this is the place I am at, where I feel bad when I still see posts criticizing Taylor Swift’s love life popping up.  They can be funny but they are snarky and lazy.  None of that is why she’s here, that’s just me rambling because I can’t sleep. She’s just here because I still am not that attracted to her most of the time.  Except sometimes I am.  I still don’t know what flips that switch but it has been flipped right now and so today I want to fuck Taylor Swift.