I am sometimes fascinated with how the internet will respond to things, just something will take it by storm. Memes. Viral videos. Whatever. I don’t know why I was being obtuse about what it was. It feels like at some point it would be a fascinating field of academic study and how it mimics in person interactions and how it differs. At what point is the snake eating it’s own tail? Like, are people responding to the original idea or are they responding to the fact that so many people are responding to it. I guess I am interested in anything that is self catalyzing. Which is why Jessica Nigri is here because like the rest of the world she dressed as Bowsette. For those not in the know this is a thing that suddenly sprung forth from minds all around the world because Nintendo can cause existential crises at a whim. In this case they introduced a crown that when a normal Toadette put it on she magically looked a whole lot like Peach. This brought the very nature of reality, rule, and identity into question in the Mario Universe, which you’d think is a so what but it turns out to be rather unsettling as people question the nature of who Peach is and thus who they are. Identity is fluid in reality but it often is uncomfortable to confront that. Anyway, a few days into that revelation and suddenly half the world said, “So, like, what if Bowser put on the crown. Does he get hot all of a sudden?” I have to admit, it’s not a thing I ever would have thought of. I know gender bent stuff is popular on the internet but I have never found myself wondering along those lines and this is radically different anyway. I also have never wondered what if Boswer was hot just because, in general, and I am quoting a 7 year old here, Bowser is kind of a jerk. Boobs or not boobs, he’s not really my type. But I do love that in the course of a single week we have gone from a world where Bowser is Half Turtle Dragon Half asshole to… well, Bowsette. It’s just fascinating to see everyone embrace it and extra interesting is that like 50 cosplayers were able to throw together said cosplay in what seems like days. My dear friend Katherine pointed out, “So did they all just have spiked collars lying around?” TO which the answer is probably or it turns out that spiked collars are a lot easier to find at Walmart than I ever realized. In fairness, I have never looked. Spiked Collars and video game bad guys as hot girls are two big blind spots. Sure, I sit around and think deep thoughts a lot about the nature of reality but somehow those two have never come up. Anyway, Jessica Nigri is a cosplayer and is nothing if not able to get in on trends so she also cosplayed as Bowsette. Which is why she is here cause she looked good but also because it’s just such a fascinating phenomena to me. I had to bring it up. Today I want to fuck Jessica Nigri.

So I was thinking about the very notion of fandom last night because sometimes my mind wanders. I have written about it here before because the very nature of it disturbs me. Mainly because I am distrustful of anyone whose identity is wrapped up in what they consume. It has always bothered me and I have shied away from it, even before there was a notion of fandom and instead we were just nerds or whatever. I liked comic books, I liked horror movies, I was deeply distrustful of people who made it their identity. It took me a long time to figure out why but essentially it’s because your identity should be wrapped up in what you produce, not what you consume. Someone whose entire sense of self is wrapped up in what they consume is not someone who produces anything of value. Meaning they aren’t a net positive on the world. This sounds lofty and elitist but I am not talking about how economically productive you are. I am talking about if your only contribution to the world is bitching about X-men online that’s a net negative on the world. And having hung your self worth on your consumption you get defensive of it and any valid criticism or disagreement of the thing you consume becomes a personal attack on you because it’s attacking the very core of who you are as a person. Besides this being sad to see it’s dangerous. How is all this related to Jessica Nigri? Well, because I am often shocked by what I see about her online. I think it is entirely fair to dislike her. I mean, I think it is rooted in some very contradictory ideas on gender and ambition but it’s fine. I think you can easily see her cosplay and ability to make money on it as cynically capitalizing off of fandom. I also kind of don’t care about most fandoms revolve around a product that was created to make money, so someone else making more money off of it hardly seems contradictory. But all of that aside, what I don’t get is the hate. People who seem to lust after her and wish her ill at the same time. It’s scary and gross but I think it is the end result of this fandom stuff. Art is made to be criticized and annualized but when you take those as personal attacks it allows you to feel like a victim. I have literally seen fandoms call themselves oppressed minorities. They aren’t. You aren’t. If you think you aren’t you’re an asshole and the reason people don’t like you is probably because you’re an asshole. The issue is by setting yourself up so that any criticism is a personal attack it allows you to turn all rejections and failings to being about your identity, which is wrapped up in bullshit that has nothing to do with you. So your real failings aren’t addressed and instead become because you identify as a Trekie or a Gamer or whatever name you’ve given yourself. And it turns dark and it allows people do demand more pictures and more revealing pictures of Jessica Nigri while spewing venom her way because they have been victimized by her. How? Because they want to see her naked or near naked and she is daring to make money off of that desire, which is victimizing them. Which is of course the ultimate dangerous endgame. I noticed this with nerds as far back as high school. Most of them weren’t ostracized because they liked comic books. They were ostracized because they lacked basic social graces. Their fault or not they were often dicks to people and their main complaint was that they didn’t get whatever they wanted. The classic example is getting a girlfriend but even just friends with the popular kids. Maybe all those popular kids are dicks, too, but if you’re not fun to be around why should they want to hang out with you? You aren’t a victim because you’re unpleasant and people don’t want to be around an unpleasant person. And I guess that’s the real issue here, if who you are is wrapped up on something someone else creates there is no way to improve yourself, because it’s up to someone else to improve that creation. If your identity is Star Wars then your self worth and ability to improve yourself is tied to someone else making good Star Wars stuff. If your identity is wrapped up in who and what you are and what you bring to the table then you are always a work in progress but one who can move the right direction if you want to. And the nice thing is when Jessica Nigri dresses as Black Cat and it’s mainly just lingerie I don’t have to get mad, no matter how many Spider-Man comics I have read (It’s literally more than a thousand I am sure) because it has nothing to do with me. I kinda just get to appreciate a pretty girl where pretty stuff and not feel in some way like I am being attacked because I can see boobs. Today I want to fuck Jessica Nigri.

I hope everyone is enjoying their holiday weekend. Assuming this is a holiday weekend for you. If it isn’t I am sorry. If this is because it is no holiday where you are then it’s ok, other holidays exist and you probably get whole days off we don’t here. If you just don’t get it off you have my sympathy. I remember working those jobs once upon a time and it’s pretty shitty. I make a habit of never going to stores on anything I consider a holiday because I don’t want to be part of the demand that forces low paid wage workers to never get a holiday off. Thus far it seems to have no impact because the grocery store is still open on Monday. Anyway, speaking of work and so on, here is Jessica Nigri who is technically self employed. She is really popular here when I post her which is once in a blue moon and I find her in general to be fascinating. On a sociological level I mean. There are few people on the internet I see people so intensely attracted to while also despising. It’s pretty gross if you want my honest opinion. Some of you will no doubt reblog this and you might want to engage in a little self examination. Why are you so angry at someone because you are attracted to them? Seems like a strange crossed wire. Now, I know she makes a great deal of money and that seems to piss people off but I don’t really think that’s it. I think it’s because people dislike that she is very openly selling sexual attraction and we prefer our women to be objectified and not profit off of it. I assume there is some shame in there. Giving her money for this when you feel it should be free. From where I am standing I don’t really care if someone makes money. I suppose there are arguments to be made about it being regressive but in the end she isn’t scamming anyone out of money, she seems to deliver exactly what she promises, which is a lot of pictures of her in nerd related stuff. The pictures are generally pretty high quality for what they are as well, so while it isn’t like every penny can be seen in those pixels she isn’t cheaping out on the product she delivers (Credit to @she-goes-to-eleven who pointed this out to me once. That Jessica Nigri is delivering a level of content that shows professionalism. It isn’t a thing I had thought about much prior. Of course Kat did because no matter what she says if you are reading this Jessica Nigri is her #1 celebrity crush). But hey, we know why there is hate right? Contempt is required or strangers on the internet might judge your boner, huh guys? Live your life how you want but if you are only doing something to seem cool to other people it’s important to note that that just makes you painfully insecure. And sadly, insecure people are never cool. They’re too insecure to pull it off. As for me, I just really like boobs and pretty costumes sometimes. Today is one of those times. So today I want to fuck Jessica Nigri.

I know I have a few grinches among my followers and you know what?  It’s your life, I am not going to come down on you for that.  Everyone has their own stuff going on and I can’t know yours.  You know what I do know?  You can find some good in most things.  Like this post.  Let’s say you hate Christmas but I know you guys love Jessica Nigri.  I know this because my notes are still blowing up.  Well, sure, Christmas might not be for you but look what gift it’s given you, it’s given you a ton of pictures of Jessica Nigri spreading holiday cheer.  I feel more cheerful.  Today I want to fuck Jessica Nigri.

Jessica Nigri is showing up and is in danger of doing so again before Christmas because apparently she is all about the Christmas spirit.  Or just… smart about what she wears when.  Whatever the reason I do see a steady trickle of her new stuff on the internet and sometimes it catches my eye and basically all of Decembers seems to be dedicated to Christmas themed stuff.  Which I am 100% down for because I quite like Christmas.  And I like sexy Christmas stuff.  I don’t know why and it’s probably not a thread I should pull, why do I always like girls in red velvet and white fur trim?  Boy, some questions are just better not answered.  I do.  I embrace it.  I move on.  Anyway, here she is because… well actually white fur trim and a sparkly red top.  I guess that’s Santa Claus cosplay?  That’s kind of confusing on a few levels as well but I think she looks amazing.  So today I want to fuck Jessica Nigri.

Guys, I think we are officially into the Christmas season now even though it doesn’t quite feel like it to me. Maybe when December gets here.  Either way, I am posting Jessica Nigri today and my reasons for posting her has nothing to do with Christmas but I did include some Christmasy type pictures just in case it helps anyone get into the holiday cheer.  I don’t have much of a reason for posting her besides the fact that sometimes I am simple.  She’s pretty hot. Sometimes that’s all I need really.  Plus I mean, my attempts to pass along Christmas cheer I guess.  Ho Ho Ho.  Today I want to fuck Jessica Nigri.

I don’t know if anyone is aware but it’s October and that means Halloween is coming.  I probably haven’t mentioned it so it’s ok if you didn’t realize.  It is coming though.  I am excited.  Again, you probably had no idea.  Anyway, here is Jessica Nigri cause she wears costumes.  Sometimes I like how she looks in costumes and I have liked a few things recently a lot.  And you know… I wanted something Halloweeny.  And I mean, look at that black nurse Mercy costume.  It’s terrifying right?  This is a completely spooky post and I forgive every one of you who is so frightened by these spooky costumes that you forget to hit like or reblog.  You were too terrified.  Today I want to fuck Jessica Nigri.

So I run hot and cold on Jessica Nigri, mainly cause she’s not really my “type” in general.  But on the internet, at least in the circles I frequent, it would be impossible to escape her and she has been doing a bunch of Christmas stuff.  I am a fan of a dedication to Christmas and some of it I thought has looked really good.  The white hair is a good look.  I am a fan of it for her.  Anyway, I know Christmas isn’t for everyone.  I get it.  If people weren’t wrong how would we be able to judge what’s right?  We need people like that.  Anyway, Christmas is really the reason she’s here because I have quite liked some of the Christmas looks I have been seeing (and good lord there are a lot, I went look and just wow.  Dedication to Christmas, I can appreciate that).  Today I want to fuck Jessica Nigri.