Tag: Rapper

Nicki Minaj has been going through a somewhat public break up over the last month or so and it makes me feel bad for her.  I mean… I feel bad for anyone in that situation because it sucks.  I guess it stands out with her because the pop landscape has been dominated by cartoonish excess for a long time now, a lot of over the top ridiculousness.  Over the top ridiculousness that I enjoy actually but it does not lead to a lot of human moments, so when one sneaks in it catches my attention.  And I feel for her not because I think she’s going to have trouble finding a new boyfriend or anything but because break ups are terrible, especially of really long term relationships.  They are one of those minor human tragedies that are so unfortunately common I think we often lose our empathy and forget how tragic it is.  Even though we’ve all been through it.  Most of us at least.  I know I know what it’s like to have my heart ripped out, it’s terrible, it’s cruel because your mind and body rebel against the situation from all angles.  You fall in love together, you spend so much time together, but then you fall out of love so desperately alone and isolated.  The person you were most likely to turn to for comfort is the one you can’t.  You can’t be together because it’s miserable but it’s miserable to be apart.  This sort of conflicting reality is tragic but we forget it because it is also common.  So I have been thinking about that in general.  I always try to be empathetic because I feel like there is a lack of empathy in the world.  So when someone, celebrity or not, posts about needing a hug, I feel it and I feel for them.  So I guess that’s why Nicki Minaj is here today because sure she’s very attractive but the human vulnerability is what is really making me think about her.  Of course, these sorts of posts always make it so awkward when I end by saying today I want to fuck Nicki Minaj.

Nicki Minaj was on SNL last night and thus Nicki Minaj is on my blog this morning.  Because I find her very attractive.  And she was quite entertaining last night.  Thus.. she’s here.  Tada!  I don’t know what else to say, I think she is extremely hot and there are a few of you who agree with me so today I want to fuck Nicki Minaj.

I get a little defensive every time I post Nicki Minaj.  Not for me but for her sake.  Mainly because people feel the need to tell me she’s not attractive.  Which, you know, whatever, it’s your life, be wrong if you want to be. I have never understood the urge to tell me that though.  But like, I get defensive for her sake which feels pretty dumb.  I think she can take care of herself.  She seems relatively confident.  I mean, in general I don’t get the impression she lacks in self esteem or anything.  Being rich and successful probably takes the edge off a little, too.  So I won’t get defensive this time (I mean except for the start where I did).  I will simply say that I find Nicki Minaj quite attractive, physically and her attitude.  So today I want to fuck Nicki Minaj.

Here is Nicki Minaj because I think Nicki Minaj is hot.  I think at least 90% of the time I have posted her here I have explained that I think she’s hot and am confused by people who don’t.  It’s not a big deal I guess, your opinions are your own.  I will never understand how people look at me like I am from the moon though when I say she’s hot.  Because I think she’s hot.  Oh well… more for me?  No… it doesn’t work that way with people, just food.  Well, I will consider myself to be among the elite few with truly sophisticated taste.  Or something.  Today I want to fuck Nicki Minaj.

So I had an unfortunate interaction with a racist yesterday who, like most racists, saw himself as not racist but rational.  Also like so many racists he seemed to operate under the assumption that everyone feels the way he does, he’s just the only one voicing it.  Which of course is the power silence on the matter of racism gives racists.  They think they have legions of silent allies.  You might wonder why a post about Nicki Minaj is starting this way and it is quite frankly because she’s black.  I think it’s important to recognize that because it’s too easy to let the idea of race become invisible to those of us who allow it to be so.  If you are white and well off there is a good chance you have the convenience to not think about racism often.  I don’t think Nicki Minaj can be discussed without thinking about racism though, not for me at least.  My train of thought started this way last winter when Beyonce mentioned she was a feminist in GQ.  I assumed the reaction would be resounding applause because discussions of feminism don’t come up much at all in GQ and mainstream pop stars very rarely bring it up.  For an icon to do so was a big deal.  Instead there were a lot of articles from well educated and well read white people steeped in a racism they may not even know exists.  They attacked her because of how she dresses on stage and the fact that she plays on her sexuality.  Which goes back to age old stereotypes that can be so ingrained we don’t even realize we have them.  People have largely embraced Madonna and the way she traded on her sexuality.  She is considered a feminist icon.  The difference, of course, is that classically (and by classically I mean in the olden days, ie way more racist days) white sexuality is seen as knowing and sophisticated and black sexuality is seen as wild and animalistic.  Madonna knows what she is doing and is using it to empower herself as a woman.  The same could not be true for a black performer.  Which brought us around to the Anaconda cover, which people tore apart.  Nicki Minaj very astutely pointed out many, many white models showing off their asses.  Some people got this.  Others said it wasn’t racism, it was different.  I read an article that said the problem was her album cover was, “Attention seeking”.  No shit, it’s a piece of commercial art, the entire point of an album cover is to grab your attention.  But I am not here to discuss that, really.  I know this got heavy, I know you may not be here to read that, it’s cool.  I have a forum here though, I have a bunch of followers, it is an obligation to sometimes use the forum you have to say something that matters.  You can read all this and disagree with me.  That’s fine.  I just want you to think about why you think and feel the way you do about things.  When you instinctively feel a way maybe stop and examine it.  See if your reaction changes based on who is doing something.  Just be aware of the world we live in and that it isn’t entirely equitable to everyone.  You know, maybe be less judgmental and more prepared to see things from another view.  And feel free to keep hating Nicki Minaj, it’s your choice. I don’t hate her.  I find her quite attractive.  Today I want to fuck Nicki Minaj.

I was talking to someone here on tumblr the other day and she noticed that I have posted Nicki Minaj a bunch of times and was stunned.  Like that was her take away when looking at who I post most frequently.  It was, “Nicki Minaj? Why?"  Which is not uncommon.  I don’t think there is anyone else I post who people actually get so upset about.  Upset isn’t even the right word, some people get mad and feel compelled to tell my why I am wrong!  I am wrong about who I am attracted to!  Like my brain misfired and I typed the wrong name and put in the wrong pics.  I mean, I get not being attracted to her.  I happen to think she is attractive but we all have people we like that others don’t and people we don’t like that others do.  I don’t understand the shock and outrage.  Like I am so wrong.  Or like you look at her and can’t understand how anyone would possibly like her.  And that is baffling to me.  I don’t know, considering her entire style is confrontational I would say it means she’s doing her job to evoke such strong emotions.  I don’t know, I am pretty sure I could start a post with "I know Hitler did some shit wrong but still…” and get fewer angry reactions from friends.  I do not understand that.  That is the mystery I of posting Nicki Minaj.  I guess the interesting thing here is if talking about it openly means I will get more or fewer people going, “Nicki Minaj? WTF!?!” And on the flip side how many people will reblog this or reply to it saying they too find her attractive.  That happens sometimes too but less often.  Anyway, here is where I baffle and confound most of you by admitting I find the person above attractive and say today I want to fuck Nicki Minaj.

I have thought Nicki Minaj looked good recently when I have seen her on the red carpet.  Like the Other Woman stuff and then I think MTV something or other.  I can’t remember.  She looked good but she didn’t make it here and oh well, that happens.  Sometimes people come in like second a bunch of days in a row and then they are back out of sight and out of mind.  Well, there were more awards last night because duh, of course there were.  I can never keep the music ones straight because none of them matter but she looked very good at them so she is getting posted today.  Because today I want to fuck Nicki Minaj.

The question of any white rapper as they rise to prominence is one of realness, doubly so for a female.  It becomes and interesting balance as all the things that bring authenticity into question become the same factors that will help create greater commercial prospects, in this case beauty, a modeling background, a general sense that she is privileged.  I am not going to get into a discussion of who is really the realest though (I only bring it up so you know I am aware.  You don’t have to send me asks or anything about this, I am aware!) because it is a fools errand.  Also because i am completely ill equipped to head or participate in such a discussion.  I am, after all, the white kid who enjoyed Run DMC at least partially because it made the adults in my world so damn uncomfortable and nervous.  Appropriations and problematic racial implications aside, let me be real with you for a moment.  Iggy Azalea is not really here today because of her music, she is here because of a leaked picture that could have been or could not have been of her butt.  Which lead to some googling to look for pictures to compare it to.  Which I suppose makes this post a microcosm for the discussion surrounding her career, a matter of is she on your radar because of her talent or because she’s blonde, almost 6 feet tall, and has a crazy body?  It becomes difficult to answer, I enjoyed the Clueless tribute when it showed up last month, it was pleasant but it wasn’t enough to make me decide to post her right?  Her butt did that.  And so… where does that leave us?  I don’t know, I feel ill equipped to answer that as well.  The most honest I can be is that she is attractive and sometimes her music catches me and sometimes it doesn’t.  Really, in the end the reason she is here is simple, it’s because today I want to fuck Iggy Azalea.

I am still a little under the weather but I am feeling better.  It is amazing how much harder it is to post this stuff when I am sick though.  I don’t know why other than it is just.. harder.  Very erudite I know.  Speaking of erudite here is Kitty (formerly Kitty Pryde in case you need that reminder again) who is a talented lyricist and um… that’s the only connection I have there.  She is cute, her music is good, she is fascinating on lots of levels to me and I find her attractive.  I am having a tough time digging any deeper this week so we’ll just say that today I want to fuck Kitty.

There were almost too many things I could write about today.  Not people, just things I could write about Kitty.  Because she is fascinating and skilled and it is tempting to make her representational of something larger.  Which led to me thinking about her and W.E.B. DuBois and the idea of double consciousness.  Then I realized no one would read that but I will say this, it is hard to find an article about her that doesn’t use the phrases teenage rapper or teenage girl rapper in front of her name like it was a job title.  Like she went down to Rap Corp, got a job at an entry level position called “Teenage Girl Rapper”.  That’s how she answers the phone.  I bring this up because I think she is marvelously talented, I enjoy her flow, I think she is an excellent lyricist, I think the future is bright but what we see here is difficult.  See, if you are a woman, or black, or… well not a straight, white male your identity is always first the thing that makes you not a straight, white male.  I won’t go deeper than that but a good example is that you very rarely find yourself saying, “Oh, Mr. Johnson, he’s the white guy teacher”.  It is limiting in ways we don’t necessarily realize.  If you want to talk to me about it more my ask box is open but I will say she is a talented rapper and she is a teenage girl and the second will inform how she approaches the first but it does not define the first.  Or it doesn’t have to.  But that was longer than I thought, you have no idea how much I had to hold back about things like DIY, tubmlrcore, and all sorts of other stuff.  So just the bullet points.  Kitty is a girl, a teenager, a rapper, adorable, pretty hot.  Today I want to fuck Kitty.