I chose Karen Gillan today because Doctor Who is maybe the most hopeful show about the nature of humanity I have ever seen and I have a follower with a Doctor Who themed name that is pretty great and just started following me.  As I was checking out her blog she started posting some pretty depressing things with clear insinuations that she is considering suicide.  The world is a terrible and cruel place sometimes, it is absolutely horrible the way fate can treat us and even worse the ways we can treat each other.  I know as well as anyone that sometimes the night can get so dark that it looks like it will never be light again and worst of all you feel lost and completely alone.  Unloved, uncared for, drowning and struggling for breath.  Worst of all everyone around you seems fine, you think there truly must be something wrong with you.  You feel like know one knows how you feel and you will never feel better.  Truth is no one knows exactly what it feels like to be you and no one can offer you a magic cure but if you feel this way you are never, ever alone.  Someone cares.  I promise you someone cares.  Even if you think no one possibly could there are even strangers that care.  You are a human being, the very fact that you, the person you are exists is a miracle, there is no reason the exact combination of DNA and cells and quirks and traits you have should be here, it was a chance so infinitesimal I can’t even express it here because it would take too much space.  You are the fruition of 50,000 years of human history, you matter.  I cannot offer magic words and I cannot claim to be an expert, those people exist and those people will help you too but I promise you if you tell me your name and tell me you are having a hard time I will personally care.  Anyone out there can send me an ask, anyone can send me fan mail.  You can even tag me in a post if you need someone to talk to, I will gladly listen.  I promise you I am not along, not even close to it.  People will listen and they will care because you matter.  I don’t know what happened to my follower, it’s very early in the morning and I hope she just went to bed, she stopped responding to me.  I know how horrible things can feel sometime I wish no one had to go through it but if you just need someone to talk to I will be here.  There are numbers you can call 1-800-273-TALK will take care of you in America.  There are so many places, please don’t let hopelessness overwhelm you.  We don’t even have to talk about your problems, we can just talk about… how even during a post like this I will out of my ridiculously nerdy sense of obligation end it by saying Today I want to fuck Karen Gillan.