Growing up things weren’t great for me.  Actually, they were pretty terrible to be honest.  Life was unpleasant at best and music and books were my only refuge.  Many a day was spent hiding in my room with some shitty fantasy novel and the headphones on, my stereo turned up as loud as it could be so it would drown out the fighting downstairs, praying the anger didn’t spill upstairs.  I don’t know how I would have gotten through life without music and I luckily don’t have to know.  It did create a bond with people I will never meet though on a profound level as they were the only barrier I had between myself and realities children aren’t supposed to know about.  I am posting Charli XCX today but this is about Prince.  The news hit me hard yesterday because Prince was an artist of not only profound talent but he was larger than life.  He almost seemed unreal, that someone who was so aggressively odd could also be the coolest, sexiest person on Earth.  There was some comfort to that.  I was always drawn to people who could mix talent with personality to make them stand out.  Make them different so that maybe being apart from everyone else wasn’t a negative.  Prince was really important to me.  I have memoried tied up in Prince songs, be them good or bad.  He helped make things better when they were bad but he was always there.  Music was always there.  Christ, I had one of my first kisses ever after a couples skate while Diamonds and Pearls was playing.  Prince was there for all the major parts of my life and now he’s gone.  This is why people mourn celebrities, because their art was a major part of our life and we can’t help but care, it is a one way relationship but it can be an important one.  Charli XCX is here because she has a new video out today and she looked good in it but also similar to my relationship with Prince I find myself having to evangelize about her to people who don’t seem to get her.  I think she is extremely talented and I like that she also seems to do her own thing.  Also she is extremely attractive.  Today I want to fuck Charli XCX.